Compassion and Confession

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We get letters from our Compassion children, Julan and Joseph, every month or two. Julan even writes me in English so there’s no need for a translator. He calls me Tita Jessica, an honorable address in Filipino culture, as if to a parent.ย This last envelope included a letter from Julan’s mother, writing to thank me for sponsoring her child.

I cried.

I cried because, honestly, I am not as diligent to write back as they are to write to me. I am not as diligent to pray for them as they are to pray for me. I am not as caring as they are.

I want to be different.

But, the stuff of life gets in my way. I get distracted by my plenty, while they are rich in God, despite their want.

And I really don’t get that. I hope that I will grow. I pray that I will. I pray that I will care more.

I pray that I will care enough.

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    1. I have been sending online messages each time I send money. They have always had some kind of email system, though not as fancy as the one they now have. But, yes, some kind of reminder would be good.

  1. Jessica we sponsored a compassion child after you first wrote about doing so – thanks for the inspiration! I love the letters we get from Heilin [who I chose because she shared a birthday with my youngest] and the beautiful drawings [she’s only 5] she sends.

    I prefer to hand write letters to her but I find it’s much more likely to get to her if I use the online letter writing service they provide! Have you tried it? It works beautifully.

    1. I did try it recently. They had an email system for the year or two prior, just not as fancy. Last week I mailed photos and drawings from the kids for the first time. Want to do that more, though.

  2. Oh, I know that sick feeling of guilt and shame. I opened my mail yesterday to find yet another letter from one of the two women we sponsor from Women to Women International. It has been months since I wrote to her. Today is the day. God’s mercies are fresh each morning (thankfully). I am going to do better!

    1. Libby, could you point me to the Women to Women International you reference? I found several by searching, but I’d like to research the right one. Thank you!

  3. I can ditto your thoughts about writing back to your Compassion child. We have a Compassion child in Nicaragua. We had the life changing opportunity to go and meet here several years ago. She writes to us faithfully and we “try” to pass the responsibility of writing back to each family member but we are not very consistent. It pulls on my heart strings when she talks about us coming back to visit her. After reading your post I think I will get on the web today and try their new letter writing system where you can do it online and send some pictures as well. Thanks for the reminder!

    1. Isn’t it funny how life pulls us in so many directions? How wonderful that you got to meet her!

  4. I think you do care a lot otherwise it wouldn’t bother you so much ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ I’ll pray that God will help in this area. I think it’s neat that you are sponsoring a child. Your simple act of love is changing this child forever…for the better ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚ Love and hugs from the ocean shores of California, Heather ๐Ÿ™‚

  5. The Philippines is a beautiful country even if it is impoverished. I actually lived in Olongapo for 1 1/2 years. I’m sure the people you are sponsoring understand that you have a full life. If you have pics(I did back when I sponsored a child) is there a place where you can display them to remind yourself of them? If you are still reading the Bible routinely how about using their last letter as a placemark to remind you? I’m sure there is a resolution so that YOU(because I’m pretty sure that your much harder on yourself then they are) do not feel as if you are failing.

  6. We also sponsor 2 Compassion children, one in Kenya and one in Dominican Republic. We have sponsored them for years and in fact the girl from Kenya is 20 so she is almost ready to “graduate” from the program. I even visited her in 2006 when I stayed with my friend who is a missionary in Kenya. Even after that I still don’t write much. I also feel terrible. Their faith is astounding and inspirational. Their daily tasks and struggles, what they do just to survive, put anything we do to shame. But I know that they are forever appreciative for anything we can give…money, prayers, letters, pictures. Do what you can and maybe we can all make 2012 the year of being different towards our sponsor children.=)

  7. Did you know you can write letters online now and upload photos? I’m much better about writing online than I ever was with handwritten notes. I still send hand written stuff, just not as often.

  8. Right there with you! We, all, get caught up in the midst of our own life issues. May God help us each and every day!