The Weekly Ramble 10/28/23

I wish there were something really exciting to report this week, but there isn’t.

I think things would seem more “exciting” except that I didn’t take the time to plan and journal this week. Life just happened without my thinking too much about it, creatively or otherwise.

There are probably really good reasons to do this on purpose, to let forethought and reflection go for a while. Sometimes things can be a little too much or a little too busy and you just need to DO.

This wasn’t really one of those weeks. It wasn’t by design. It just happened.

Regular life was busy, so much so that I’m stunned I’m already typing another Weekly Ramble. I accomplished a fair amount of stuff with appointments for myself and kids, hours of sitting in traffic, a few trips to the gym, dinners prepped early so folks could get to their evening activities, updating blog posts and planning Christmas content, cleaning and cooking in prep for our first Open Game Night.

It’s not like I didn’t do anything, but I’m left with a feeling that I’m missing something. Some of myself, maybe.

I know that too much introspection can be burdensome, but not enough can be unhelpful as well. It probably doesn’t help that events in the outside world aren’t happy ones and can’t be made sense of even if I tried.

The world, the country, and the cars next to me on the road are full of people doing thing they shouldn’t, sometimes to heart-breaking extremes. I thought 2020 was a dumpster fire, this month feels so much worse.

I’m reminded again and again how prideful we are as humans. Each thinks he knows how it should be and what others should do, how others should act, but we’re so inept at doing the right things ourselves.

In the small things as well as the big ones.

Everyone needs to check his or her pride.

I don’t have the answers. I don’t have solutions. I’m just working hard to check my pride.

My therapist recently started calling me “a prayer warrior”. I kinda wonder if she’s got me confused with someone else. I don’t recall sharing my prayer habits with her.

That said, her advice has largely been focused on prayer, and I appreciate that.

If anyone has answers or solutions, it’s the One who made us.

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. ² He was in the beginning with God. ³ All things were made through him, and without him was not any thing made that was made. ⁴ In him was life,^[a]and the life was the light of men. ⁵ The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it. — John 1:1-5

As I work through the book of John, a study I’m doing on my own, I’m struck by the amazing truth that we can read the same words over and over again and get more out of the reading every time.

What the World needs right now is Christ. He made us. He holds it all together.

We were meant to know God and to walk with Him since we were created. Sin corrupted that relationship. Christ restores us to Himself, to our default settings.

From my study:

Constant awareness of God’s inexhaustible grace prepares us to notice God’s purposeful work in our lives.

And that’s honestly what some of my problem has been this week. I know that I process and think better when writing. My lack of journaling this week meant that I processed less of what God was doing in my life.

My consciousness of Him has been reduced. I’m not just missing myself, I’m missing Him.

So, I guess that’s it for the Weekly Ramble. Have a good weekend, resting and reveling in what God’s doing in your life.